In the Breaking

 

Listening to:
Song: The Cure for Pain
Artist: Jon Foreman
Album: Fall

 

 

Tonight as I was driving and letting the raindrops be my melody, I came to this conclusion…
As with every other muscle of the body the heart must break to build. Tissue must be torn and tendons must be stretched all for this process of growth. And though it hurts in the moment the fruit it produces is innumerable and the strength it builds faces no atrophy. It is in the breaking I am able to see grace and know the Father’s love. In my weakness I am able to submit to the unknown and trust in the Almighty. In the breaking I find peace.

For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it. -Hebrews 12:11

Dreamer

 

Listening to:
Song: You Are Mine
Artist: Enter The Worship Circle
Album: Chair and Microphone, Vol. 3

 

 

Wake up dreamer
It’s time to break from your lollipop schemes
You’ve got scratched knees and torn seams
The time’s come for dream to become reality

The tossing tide had you wasted by the wayside
Your brokenness is your only chain child
Break free!
There’s more that you seek

Call My Name

 

Listening to:
Song: Call My Name
Artist: Third Day
Album: Revelation

 

 

Call My Name
By Third Day

It’s been so long since
You felt like you were loved
So what went wrong
But do you know
There’s a place where you belong
Here in My Arms

Chorus:
When you feel like you’re alone in your sadness
It seems like no one else in this whole world cares
And you want to get away from the madness
You just call My name and I’ll be there
You just call My name and I’ll be there

The pain inside
Has erased your hope for love
Soon you will find
That I’ll give you all
That your heart could ever want
And so much more

Chorus:
When you feel like you’re alone in your sadness
It seems like no one else in this whole world cares
And you want to get away from the madness
You just call My name and I’ll be there
You just call My name and I’ll be there

You just call My name
You just call My name
Call My name say it now
I want you to never doubt
The love I have for you is so alive
CALL MY NAME SAY IT NOW
I WANT YOU TO NEVER DOUBT
THE LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU IS SO ALIVE

You just call My name
You just call My name
You just call My name

The love I have for you is so alive
The love I have for you is so alive
You just call My name
You just call My name
You just call My name

What a beautiful blessing it is to know that You never leave Father. Even when the world around me crumbles…when relationships fade. Even when I feel so alone in this world…You are here with me.

“what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?” -Psalm 8:4

Lord I did nothing to deserve this love…nothing. Why? Why do you love me? Why do you love any of us? We live lives loving and then leaving You…still You gently draw us near to You. What great love is this…that the King of the universe would call me…would call me friend.

You are deserving of everything I have to give. Oh God, that I would only call Your name…that I would only call Your name.

“that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth,” -Philippians 2:10

Learning to Breathe

That I’m learning to breathe
I’m learning to crawl
I’m finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I’m living again, awake and alive
I’m dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Tonight I feel like I truly am learning to breathe as the Switchfoot song states. I’m taking things one step at a time and learning what it means to live ALIVE. I often feel like a baby just crawling through this life, but I know with each baby step I draw one step closer to the One…the One who holds the key to all the prodding of my heart. I just want to live awake and alive. I’m dying to breathe in these abundant skies…

Fragile

Thank You

You don’t crush me with a heavy hand

You don’t leave me alone in this world

Yes I am fragile

My heart is easily broken

I am susceptible to tears

No stranger to fear

No alien to rejection or worthlessness

Still in You I find my worth

You make beauty from ashes

You make freedom from chains

Love me hard Father

Nights like this it feels like only You will